If you wouldn't have been there

       She always was a silent and introvert type of  girl who even if decided to join someone the response would never ever be positive.She never knew that the upcoming time would be the biggest drastic change in her life.
       The girl who was only in good books of faculties and had no record in friend list was one with new friend after every second step in her college days.She herself decided to transform that path as she knew it would never lead her anywhere, but even after being extrovert she would never share her feelings for him in front of him and neither let any of her friend know.Highly messed up with the "Feeling stuff" she decided to ignore as him as much as she can.Heart always act opposite to brain and so was in her situation.How could she forget the guy whom she have been liking for three years?? and also ignorance was not her cup of tea according to her.
        After her junior college when she stepped into a field made for her she became someone who was now at a different level in her life counting her brain and heart both.She was still hanged up in his case and confused from that period of life till date.A time came when one night as usual she was late for her sleep and there was sudden strike in her heart which forced her to reveal her feelings for him and she just texted him instantly in that moment.There is a particular period when your heart speaks to you and that night was the period for her.She went to sleep as he was offline so no reply was expectable.Next day checking her phone sitting on bed.She found him replying with a "Laughing Emoji" and asking "Seriously?" which totaly gave her a confusing bounce.She replied asking "You find this a joke?". He replied answering "Ok let me serious" .Her beats increased."I don't feel on you" and she was all messed up again, but ignoring her feeling she texted him back saying "I know that and I just said you all this because it was stuck in my heart from a very long period of time so better you just delete it and being mature don't allow this messege to reach till anyone else" .
           Deep down she got a hard feeling that he did liked her as his action spoke many time from the first day she caught them.She knew that he was not open with his feelings so even if he would be feeling on her he wouldn't tell in the way she told so she decided to just let go and get out of his life forever after that moment.She broke every social connection with him and decided to just forget a face which was not made for her mirror.Life is a such a shit she keeps her point saying "It makes someone so remembering in your eyes that even if you throw that individual out if your life it would again give a click of that person and store in your eyes" to herself.
        At this point she is standing on a way where she has options, but not the answer she needs of the question she has created for herself.Life changed her from various point of views, but however forget to change her direction from the most distracting way and still now she is confusingly asking herself a question "If you wouldn't have been there".....

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